Movie Night

Hm. This week has been pretty productive, if I do say so myself.
Made four complicated and fully coloured sketches that I was reasonably proud of, as well as a half a dozen little sketches that brought me minor enjoyment.
My stress kept itself purely professional - which was nice - as we had to go to the dentist yesterday, and the only way I could keep myself sane was by focusing all my attention and stress onto my work, one day at a time.

My anxiety can work for my benefit too, occasionally...
But I'm curious to see if I can do a repeat performance next week, since I think we'll be going to our yearly optometrist appointment in the next few days... And I hate going to the optometrist.
So I'll either draw lots, or crash and burn with stress.

We'll find out when we get there, I suppose.
Worse case scenario, if I draw nothing in the next 7 days I'll just post another of the sketches I made this week on here and ramble for a bit. I think no one would mind if I did that.

This was just one of the four fancy sketches I posted on Instagram this week... I did this one on Monday, I think. It took me almost two hours to do the floor because perspective and I are still strangers and I hate it with burning indifference.

But the rest of the drawing was fun to do!

I've been drawing Team Magma a lot over these past few months, and it's gotten up to the point where I can draw most of them from memory, and be comfortable with them? Like... Tabitha is almost a comfort character for me to draw now, because he's big and round and soft and has a cool horned sleeveless hoodie and he's an utter mad brat and I love him. So much.

And it's thanks to Maxie that I'm getting better at drawing glasses.. even if I think his Mega Glasses look stupid. Also, anyone that decides that wearing a turtle neck in a sub-tropical climate has my scorn and respect.

Courtney is still giving me some trouble, but I blame Nintendo for giving her such a weird outfit in the first place and wont hold it against her. She's a lovely psychotic child, even if I think she defies the laws of fashion.

*mmm* yeah, I think I'm done talking now.
I wish you guys a lovely weekend, and hope to see you in good spirits next week! :)

Rainfall

 This week's been a mixed bag. I've had my highs, and I've had some lows. My anxiety has returned to it's usual hum at the back of my head, but I'm remembering how to live with it again. That's okay. I can deal with that. Even if it is annoying feeling like I can't eat lunch. It's fine.

I've also taken the first (of hopefully many) serious steps to making my dream come true this week! Scared? Oh yeah, a lot. I've never done anything like this before. But I've got time. And I know in the end I'll come out better for it. With any luck I'll have a clearer map to the rocky road that I've decided to travel on over the year.

But enough about that.
Let's get on with the post so we can enjoy the art I've decided is good enough to share tonight.

I wasn't expecting anything special when I sketched this out. Just assumed it was going to be another unfinished doodle in a nameless folder that I'd never look at again.

Instead, it turned into something that.... actually makes me really happy to look at?
It sparks joy. It's not perfect, but I'm proud to call this my creation.

 I missed drawing this idiot. Missed drawing his stupid kangaroo face, short tail and clawed feet.
Just... Aeron taking a second to appreciate the weather, in a time period not his own, and probably thinking weirdly poetic thoughts about the beauty of something as mundane as rain.

He knows it's been done before. He's aware that this moment, and his feelings, aren't special. But he thinks it's still pretty neat anyway.
When you've seen countless marvels of the universe you sometimes have to relearn to appreciate the little things in life.

*sigh* MAN I love this idiot so much. Ruby's disaster son, doin' what few mortals have done before.
By that, I mean cause Minor Problems for the Immortals and do ridiculously bizarre things for the sake of saying you've done them.
Well... one could argue that's what most of the UV cast does. But not on such a large scale.
Few people can claim to have accidentally become Merlin the Wizard For Real while role-playing with a group of crazy Fey. Amongst other things...

"Mightyena's shouldn't be allowed Ice Cream..."

I remember when doing my weekly art post was easy. Well, not easy... but more organized? No, that's a lie too. I usually scrambled to come up with something at the last minute. Not always, but usually.

But if feels like I've gotten a lot more lazy over these years. Which is silly, because I probably draw a lot more than I did when I was 15. And harder, too. But because I don't spend an entire day devoted to a single drawing and making it as over the top and detailed as possible, it feels like I'm falling short.

It's probably time I moved the goal posts, but I'm a perfectionist. If I'm not working at 120% then I clearly don't care. Even if I care a lot.

Which is probably why I still feel physical pain when I try and post something... less clean. Like this. Even when I like it, it still hurts when I do this.

Hm. I was probably going to go somewhere with that train of thought, but heck if I can remember what it is now. Oh well.
I'm tired from this week and want to go to bed.
I think that might be the basic gist...

I push myself to my limits far too much.
Don't believe a word of it, but that's probably what's happening.

Mm. Anyway.
I have a splatfest session with my cousins tonight, so I should probably get to that.
I'll probably feel better tomorrow. A good rest will cure any depressing mood... or so I'm told.

See ya! *picks up controller and prepares to murder the innocent*

Vampire Kid (Redraw)

*Raises hand in salute* SALUTATIONS, my beloved comrades!
We have come to feast on some leftovers tonight; recooked, and re-imagined!

Take a bite out of this!

 Decided to do younger me a favor and re-draw an old picture I absolutely loved. It was nice and relaxing to do.

While not particularly impressive, I had a lot of fun and it refreshed me from all the pokemon fanart I've been doing for the last three months.
(probably refreshed all you guys too)

Original picture - (2016, July 2)

HA. Wow. My style both changed dramatically and not at all? That's cool.
I think I grew more simple, and spent less time shading and texturing everything. The eyes are still pretty big, though. Haven't changed THAT at all. XD

Okay. That's pretty neat.

 *****

... I just got a WEIRD sense of Déjà vu just now. Did... did I plan to redraw this?? When I made the original, did I... unintentionally PLAN to one day come back and redraw this???

Huh.

So maybe I did have a point doing this after all.

.....

YOU'RE WELCOME, PAST ME! <3  

Ah. Self-love is such a nice feeling.

"Look, I'm not sure what you want me to do about this, Shelly."

A brand new year and a brand new post~ What could be better than that?
Nothing I can currently think of, anyway.

Have some more fanart, because I have literally nothing else to share.

It's been three months and I'm still drawing Pokemon art for my sister. This shocks me.

I think it's because every time I try and draw for myself I end up being depressed? But drawing for someone else is far easier, for they are less critical of my art and are easily satisfied.
*shrug* Who knows. Either way, I'm drawing a lot, so I'm not seeing this as a bad thing.

I ride the wave until it washes me ashore. Then I go forth and catch another wave!
The cycle of hyper fixation is a wonderful and exciting one. :)