Neko Nerd

 Despite uni shenanigans, I decided I deserved an early birthday present this week so I took the time to draw some more on my Cintiq tablet.

 

Safe to say this guy is a complete and utter nerd, and I wouldn't have him any other way

Cherry Blossom Boy

you fOOLS! Did you think I wouldn't have time to make some digital art after all these weeks of uni work? THINK AGAIN!

 And double fools! Did you think I wouldn't draw the most adorable Ninjago oc in all the seven realms? You were wrong again!
*fist pump* Mission accomplished! April Fools day was a success!
totally not pretending I planned this, absolutely not insinuating it was a delightful coincidence that I can share some digital art instead of stuff from my sketchbook this week XD

Seriously though, words cannot describe how much I adore Zeke. My twin sister is a genius and he is adorable <3

Earth!Jay sketchdump

 Let this week die in the dust and never be spoken of ever again

 Except this good lad! He can stay forever because he is polite and I want to cherish him.

Lightning!Kai sketchdump

 Second verse same as the first; glad I survived another week of uni, but I am sad to say scissors hate me and I am not making an effort to love them back. Can't help if I'm left-handed, but the scissors hold it against me anyway.

 Least these ninja dorks don't hate me for my inability to use a pair of scissors.

Fire!Zane sketchdump

 Whelp! Survived week 2 of uni. A little better than last week, and with any luck I'll survive week 3 too. But that's tomorrow's problem, and for now I am happy to relax and enjoy the rest of my Saturday night <3

If nothing else, studying and drawing 'for uni' has definitely made me appreciate drawing fanart and my own projects more. Not that I have the energy for it except on Saturday, but that's why it's even more special

The Time has Come

 The time has come, brothers and sisters. It is time for me to join the ranks of the higher and holier multitude of education and learning.

... And by that, I mean open University.

 I am terrified beyond belief, but optimistic things will be fine despite my crippling fear of... well, a lot of things! But I'm optimistic all the same.

I've survived this week, even if I was confused and lost and hopelessly ditzy. Hopefully next week I'll understand what I'm doing a little better.

If I don't make it, I hope my dearly beloved friends and family will find my body and give me a good funeral and a delightfully witty gravestone about "She died as she lived: heart full of love and head empty of everything except anxiety and Christmas colored ninjas"

But that's future problems and no one has to think of that yet. Least of all me.
For now, I've got a night of joy and peace to comfort me. That's all I need right now.

Just some ninja dorks hugging

 Who else had a hard week and needed something soft to fill your soul at the end of the day?
No matter either way, cuz that's what you're gonna get from me tonight.

Yup. That's what I did this week.
Maybe not important, but it made me happy and I think that's enough for now.

*finger salute* See y'all around, folks. Hope you live long enough to see next week and get through whatever challenges you're facing at the moment. <3

Light it up, boys!

 Hiya!

Uhh...

 I made a lot of things this week (not as many as last week, but still a lot) yet the one thing my eyes keep getting drawn back to is this piece.

I dunno why. Guess it hits the perfect balance of 'I like the idea' and 'artistically, this pleases me'. 

It's simple and sketchy, but it sparks joy.

Guess that's all an artwork needs sometimes <3

That's a LOT of art

 Right. This week of February somehow felt longer and busier than all of January combined. And January had already been pretty long and busy.

I mean, I'm always busy? Busy drawing, and busy keeping my mental and emotional health on top as I mender through daily chores and routines? But I somehow made 5 pictures with a background this week. One for every day of the week; except Friday. But on Friday I decided "I've drawn so much, I need to take a break".  So I cleaned up 1500 words of fanfiction instead.

Like I said. I've been busy.

Yup. I drew all of that this week. 5 days.
Normally I'm lucky if I have the energy to make one impressive thing per week. So this has been a surprise for all of us.

I'd love to get used to this type of productivity, but I have the feeling my ADD has been fueling my desire and ability to create, and the other half was God's blessing. Definitely couldn't have made any of this off my own back, that's for sure.

And also I wanted to make sure my twin had something nice to look forward to at the end of each day.
Yeah, that's right. I miss you and love you very much, and need to make sure you know I was doing my best and working hard <3

... these 13 weeks are going to be very long, aren't they? XD WHELP, if this week was anything to go by, I'm gonna be drawing a lot of stuff so bring it on!

Let's see what the next seven days will take us!

Snowy Mountain Ninjas

 ..........

*Hand motion to the ninja dorks I'm still obsessed with*

 I mean??? can you blame me? If Jay had the powers to effortlessly lift the heaviest guy in the squad, and if Cole had actually stuck with dance classes because disappointing his dad is a fate worse than death, until it wasn't then of course he's gonna let his best friend carry him around like a graceful sack of potatoes! It's a novel experience for both of them.
So of course I have to draw them. My hand was tied, your honor! Had to do it! Had to!

Grief, Ice!Cole and Earth!Jay are so much fun to think about.

Compact Strength

News flash! ... or, whatever the opposite of a news flash is. Old news? Continued news that surprises no one? Whatever. I'm still obsessed with the candy colored ninjas of Spinjitsu. And that probably won't change for a little bit.
But I'm leaning heavily towards the AU me and my twin created a few weeks ago. *shrug* what can I say? Swapping elemental powers is always a fun way to explore characters and test the bounds of creativity. These dorks are no exception.

Words cannot describe how much I love the short weak one of the gang getting the powers to control the earth and lift mountains (or all his friends at once). He'd love it like a dachshund loves standing on something to make it feel taller.
It's endearing and stupid and I love him for it.

Do I say more? I could, but I don't feel like it today.
Enjoy your weekend and see you again next time folks! And just like the news (even if it's old news) I'll be back next week. Take care <3

Skatin'

 Another long week of January bites the dust and I still can't believe it's not March or May or something equally far off into the future
Must've been all the long nights of insomnia I've been having. Or it's just the time blindness; either is a real possibility, and I can't judge what the real answer is right now

But anyway! I got....... a little obsessed with an idea earlier this week, and as a result I made a lot of figure drawings based on ice skating.

This man is fabulous. I love him a little more than a normal amount, and I will continue to think about him until I stop.
That is all you need to know right now.

I bid thee folks adieu until next week. *proceeds to slide backwards and out the door into the night* FAREWELL BRAVE SOUL

Pour, Pour on Me

 Make me forget the dark
Hide me in your falling shelter
As I drown
Let it quench my thirst
And make me remember
That not all moments need to be bright
or sweet, or painless
And all moments
dark, heavy, and painful
only last a moment
before the next one comes

There is comfort in your storm
Cause every drop reminds me of your blessings

Pour it all on me
Spare not your life
and renew me daily
So I can dance in your storm

Master of Ice, Slicing and Dicing

Wow. That was the longest first week of a new year I think I've ever experienced. Feels like 2 months should've passed, so you can imagine my incredulity at finding out it's only been seven days. ONLY seven days.
Time blindness is truly a magical experience.

Like, take this picture! I was not aware I drew this on Sunday. Completely and totally forgot I made this a few days ago (instead of ages go like I emotionally believed) and I'm not quite sure what to do with this information except internally scream because wHAT do you MEAN I made this on Sunday-!?

ANYWAY. The Ninjago obsession is still going strong, and it's gaining speed.
Don't ask me when I'm going to be free. No one knows that information. Not even me.

And thus ends the first seven days of 2023. With me being mildly alarmed and doing what I do most; make art with no idea what I'm doing or where I'm going. And the next week will likely be similar, but only one way to find out!!
See you guys until then! PEACE!

Why am I here again, and why can't I find the door to get out?

 Not gonna lie, out of all the things I expected to do on the last week of 2022, becoming obsessed about an old tv show about bright-coloured spinning ninjas made of lego was not one of them. AND YET, here I am! Doing just that! And I love it hate every second I am stuck in this hole that I jumped in by myself

SO YEAH. That's what I've been doing this week!
ADHD is a magical experience that takes you for a ride, that's for certain.

 I'm just hoping this Ninjago phase doesn't last for 6 months (like the Hamtaro obsession I had earlier this year) but if it does you bet I'm going to make the most of it and try to get as much comic experience out of this as possible!
I've already successfully made a short sketch comic about Zane and Kai within 3 days. That bodes. But honestly, everything is always unpredictable and I'll play it by ear.
Who knows what's going to happen in 2023 after all!

... literally anything, and that scares me. But it always does, so it changes nothing. I'll keep doing my best and take it one day at a time.

I don't have anything much to say, but I can say 2022 was a year that I'm glad happened, despite all the crazy things that I had to live through.
Sure, I didn't make that portfolio that I said I'd try to do at the start of this year (and in all honesty I completed forgot I was meaning to do that XD) but I looked back at all the things I posted on Instagram and I was like "Cool! Look at all this stuff I did! How'd I do any of this??" so that must mean I did good! :3 And I'm content, so what more do I want right now?

And despite my anxiety, I did a lot of new things that I've never done before, AND I survived a few bad spells without giving into the inner darkness and turmoil. So that's cool too!

Anyway! I've got things to do, and only 4 hours until the new year, so I'm going to go and enjoy myself.
I'll see you all next year! I hope all of you guys survived 2022, and may 2023 be full of good things and good people for all of you <3 Take care!

The magic of Sun and Rain

 It's the Eve before Christmas, and yet I am stuck still thinking it's November and feeling like it's October.
What else is new, though?

 Intellectually I am aware it is Christmas Eve, but emotionally? Well, I'm not quite there yet.
Maybe it's because it's been a lovely and cool summer so far, and because it's not hot enough to melt my skin I've been stuck thinking "Oh, it's not Christmas yet. Gotta wait a little bit longer" and it still hasn't happened yet.

And maybe it's because I've been thinking about other things lately. I haven't had any interest in the holiday spirit or even listening to Christmas music. This is fine; Christmas is a state of mind anyway, and once January or February rolls around I'll probably let all my festivities out in then. I'm not bound by any mortal or law to celebrate holidays at the traditional months or weeks.
For now, I'm content with resting and drawing my brain kiddies a little more.

Been drawing Sadness a lot this week because I needed to look after her, but now I feel like I can trust Joy to look after her for me.
It's been a nice, dark and rainy Christmas Eve today. Even if I don't feel any holiday spark, I at least felt these two getting along and working together to create memories I'll cherish (or forget) for next year.
Who knows what's going to happen next year. But at least this year is almost over and I'm still here, so that's a good start.

Still can't believe I drew a little comic about these two last year to be honest XD I don't know how I did that.
But anyway! I hope you guys have happy holidays and I'll see you all again next week to sound off the old year. Hope you're all doing okay too <3

Little Emotions

Behold! Little tiny Emotions, to brighten your day and mine!

 They're small and full of big feelings, and I am here for it

Sweet Sadness

 How're you doing, folks? Having a good day? Yes? No? Maybe?
Well, having a little Sadness in your day is bound to make it better. I know mine did when I drew her! <3

 So if you're not having a good day, accept the inevitability of needing a few minutes of quiet time and let yourself be absorbed by the loving embrace of someone who knows exactly what you're going through right now.
You don't even have to thank her- she does it because she loves you and wants a few minutes of quietness too.

Go to her.
... or don't. You don't have to right now. She'll be there all the same until you need her.
It's all cool. XD

Sitches and Stars

 My head is empty. There is not a thought in my head except of pokemon and anxious wrecks trying to please everyone and having no idea how to do it without having a breakdown.

But there is this thing I drew a few days ago, and I think it's pretty neat! So why not. Let me share with you good folks.

I've been thinking about drawing stitches like constellations for a while. I'm pretty pleased with how it turned out.
You may go about your day again. I shan't disrupt you again until we meet again briefly next week <3