Uuh...
My brain feels like it's full of white fog.
Hm.
Well. I kinda fell flat halfway through the week and I was unable to draw anything 'productive'. So I let myself have some fun with a quick Inside Out sketch instead.
It was really nice colouring something to a ridiculous degree again.
The pose didn't come out too badly either.
And compared with what I could do last year, I think it's safe to say I improved a little bit. So that made me happy. :)
Not gonna lie. Kinda had my eye on the calendar all month for this day.
Not because I had anything special planned. It was just because today gave me a wonderful excuse to draw my favorite vampiric nerds again. :)
They're all still living rent-free in my brain. And I don't intend to start charging them anytime soon.
*Raises fruit juice into air* May you live long and prosper, my children! And Fang too. And may you continue to give me joy and headaches for years to come. *Drains glass*
That is all, folks.
*Slams glass into table and accidentally cracks it*
I ain't got much to say, except How're ya doin' on this fine day!
And then we'll all leave because life's busy and you have things to do.
But that's okay, because this is just a pit-stop making you take a break before you do something more important.
As it should be.
September is the month that makes me think of my kids, and the children of my kids. So that's why we have some little DeathDancer's on the scene today.
Their colours make me very happy on the inside. Alexis looks like her mother (but slightly pinker), Vincent takes after his father (except more fluffy), and Aeron is a throwback to his uncles, Grandfather, and Great-Grandfather.
I mean, apart from the penguin genetics of course. But that goes without saying.
Hey.
I made another OverKill sketch yesterday.
And it's of our Phossy lad! P4!
Considering I had no idea how to draw glowing phosphorus, I think I did a pretty good job!
He looks the right amount of spooky and ethereal. Fragile and delicate, but you know very well you should keep your hands off him.
Excellent.
Ah, September is upon us again, and with it comes hotter weather and breezes straight from the ocean. And 20's swing music for some reason.
*shrug* One of those vibes that invites itself over for some reason. But who am I to question it? It's good. I'm having fun with it.
Hm. Not much I want to say this week. So I guess I'll go and try to sketch something before dinner.
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UH YEAH I accidentally spaced out and it's now almost ten minutes later and I'm still here oKAYBYE HAVE A GOOD WEEKEND GUYS!
Eh. Had one of those weeks where it feels like your brain is on a restart loop, so you have to cope by turning on autopilot and hoping nothing exciting happens until you can blink for a few times without feeling like you've fallen into an alternative dimension, or like your memory has been linked to a light switch that's being flicked on and off by an angry child trying to blow a fuse.
I know the vibes have been good. I just can't remember why. Or... anything, really.
Probably not that important in the long run. But still. Lil' frustrating.
Which is why I drew this.
I have to force myself to continue my train of thought often. Like pushing a train uphill by myself. And then my focus isn't focused on what I was thinking on, but is focused on focusing on focusing on thinking. And it gets tiring. And then I stop trying, and let my body travel without my brain. And I wake up to find myself doing something else two rooms from where I used to be; all a very smooth procedure, if you don't squint and analyze every little detail anyway. And it feels odd.
It even happens in the middle of talking to my family. I have to trust that the part of me that's still controlling my body can continue without me. Even if I can't remember what we were talking about. Or where we're going. Or why. Or when it will stop so I don't have to worry about forgetting to talk back. Or coming up with an answer to continue a conversation that I can't even remember being a part of.
My brain's always done this. It just feels like it's doing it a lot more than usual this week.
I miss thinking coherently.
Hm.
Didn't mean to go this overboard on a shenanigan sketch, but I guess it gives me something to share with you tonight.
If you're gonna get brainwashed, ya might as well have fun and go all out with it, amiright?
Well HOWDY, there! I'm back, but I don't have time to stay for long, so I'll post this and I'll be on my way.
I have things to do and dinner to eat before the clock strikes 7:30. So let's do this quickly.
My lil' cousin has been introducing me to some new music, and I've been drawing quick sketches inspired by them for fun.
If I hadn't had such a tiring week (or less time), I probably would've loved to try and colour this. But alas, my energies are needed elsewhere, and I can't indulge on silly sketches. Even if this took me almost 2 hours to make.
Weapons are hard to draw, maaan... Why do I gotta keep doing this to myself?
At least it was good drawing my agents again.
Ha, well...
New month again. Always seems to happen just as I was getting used to the old one.
Ain't that the way.
Anyway. You're here to check what I've been up to since last time, yeah?
It's not much, but I can offer a little something.
Here you go -
This pic was basically just me letting my hand do it's thing while my brain took five. Not planned. Not polished. Just... *motions* art. Y'know?
I'll admit, tho, some of the vibes have been rattling in my head for a few weeks. Joy humming and plinking on the controls is a, uh... concept drawing trying to expand my idea of my HQ console?
Like, obviously it's got a lot of buttons and levers and stuff, but I really liked the idea of there being a second layer underneath the official desk - like a hidden drawer - that when you pull it out, it has a very old fashioned 70's keyboard/synthesizer built into it.
(Maybe it glows rainbows. Maybe it doesn't. I haven't decided yet.)
It's not meant to control actions; just stimming and general shenanigans. Because even if I haven't played the piano since I was 15, I loved the finger movements and flying across the keyboard to my own beat. Much to the bemusement of my music teacher.
And pretending I can play a tune to a song in my head is very enjoyable. Even if it doesn't make sense.
Disgust adjusting Fear's tie is another vibe I've liked thinking about sometimes too. Because after Fear took up position as Lead Emotion, Disgust might not have approved of the change in leadership, but she did take her chance to adjust and straighten his attire as much as possible. Can't have a sloppy leader, right?
Disgust did her best with Joy, but the personification of happiness and bliss wasn't going to change her t-shirt and shorts for nobody. And good for her, too.
The other two little sketches was just... me needing something easy to draw. No special reason why I drew what I drew.
Kinda like the Sadness one, tho.
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Hm. Yeah...
Guess I just needed a break from being serious for a week.(She says while she's always trying not to be serious)
Hopefully things will get better next week. We'll see.
But till then, you take care my dudes. See you around! And thanks for dropping by. :)
*Deep Breath*
OKAY. So.
A lot has been going on with me this month. Some good. Some bad. But the one thing that's been constantly pushing for my attention (besides my comic project) was Art Fight; an annual art game that happens in the middle of Summer, where people draw each other's ocs for fun (and points).
This was my first year participating. Of course I was anxious at first, but once I got into the swing of things, it was actually pretty fun! Flexing my new art muscles gained from online lessons, as well as showing off my own characters and style. And of course, drawing for other people.
I tried not to spend too much time for each piece, but you know me... I always like doing a good job on something if I can. Especially for art.
So yeah. Didn't mean to add a fully detailed background, but hey; least I got a lot of points for it.
Martini is mine, of course, but the other joker is called Mingle Jingle. They belonged to a Swedish dude ( >> His Tumblr << ) ( >> And his DeviantART << ) who I thought had a nifty style. It meshed nicely with mine, anyway.
If I'm too burnt out over the next few weeks, I might share some more of my Art Fight attacks on my blog. But until then; what's done on Art Fight, stays on Art Fight.
It'll all be over in the next 24 hours, anyway. Whichever team wins is inconsequential; if my team wins, that'd be neat. But if we lose, it just means we got more art, and still win anyway.
I'm definitely going to participate next year (if all is well). Maybe rope my cousins or sister into the deal, too. That'd be fun.
But enough of that. I'm out.
See you all next week! Keep safe! <3
A day spent drawing nothing but short stripey clowns with hoops is a day that doesn't come by often. So I made the most of it and tried to enjoy myself. Which I did. But it also meant I had all these sketches to choose from, and I couldn't decide which one I liked best.
So I'm picking them all.
Even after two years, this lil' clown is still super fun and easy to draw... That's good. Means I did a good job designing her.
Or maybe my taste in comfort characters hasn't changed much since then... Eh. It doesn't matter.
Definitely need to give her some friends to play with, though. But that's a challenge for another day methinks.
Due to me being sick for half the week, then overwhelmed for the other half and busy with comic stuff, I have decided to share some old sketches and have a day off drawing, instead of stressing myself anymore than I have to.
There is context behind all of this, but I do not wish to explain it tonight. All that you need to know is that the magic in this world is weird, my anthro characters are (sometimes) human, and spiders are treated as farm animals and sheep are dangerous predators and that still delights me on a fundamental level you cannot understand.
I forgot I even drew any of this. But it's nice seeing these sketches again; if only briefly.
Hi! How you lot doing? I'm personally well. Not physically, (because I'm sick) but quite content. Which is pretty good for me, considering how my week went.
But because I spent two days recovering from a near burnout, and then didn't have enough time to finish this picture on Friday, I just don't have the energy to properly shade or add special effects to this anymore. Bit of a shame, but that's the way it is sometimes.
It still looks okay, though. Don't hate it or nothing. Just disappointed I couldn't finish it, and probably never will, because I have better things to do with my time.
Oh well. :)
If I ever took writing more seriously, I would definitely want to write a fanfic series exploring all the different aspects of all the emotions; both positive and negative, and how they clash and compliment each other.
But that's a dream for another day.
Hope you guys have a good weekend! I'll see you next week. :)
Cheer up and dry your damp eyes and tell me when it rains
And I'll blend up that rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
Cause your heart has a lack of color and we should've known
That we'd grow up sooner or later cause we wasted all our free time alone
Well. I was planning to write down something along the lines of an introduction, but then I spent the next half-hour reading comics and my brain feels like it's melting, so I've decided against it now.
And another half hour later, and I'm still here.
No point in letting this sit any longer. I'm out. Enjoy your weekend, guys. *proceeds to go back to reading comics*
Evening, all! Not much to say tonight, except that I've had a great week (in spite of those moments of raw panic) and I'm very excited for tomorrow so I can start work again! Like... "I'm ready for all the challenges that come my way and I can taste victory" excitement. Confident, but (hopefully) not cocky.
That will probably come back to bite me by Monday, but enthusiasm never hurts anyone. Besides; it might come true!
Ah, but enough of my rambling.
Who wants to see a familiar anxious monster?
Hah. I was looking at some old OverKill sketches and thought it would be fun to draw Phossy again. Revamp his design a little.. but mostly just curious to see how far I've come since I first drew him.
I think it's safe to say I've improved a little since 2018.
Just a bit, mind you.
Man, I missed drawing this stressed nerd! I definitely need to try and do a big art project with him in the near future. That could be a lot of fun. Make it all glowy and sparky...
Heh. Anyway. I've got things to do, so I'll let you go now. See y'all next week! Take care! <3
Hm. Bit of an odd week for me. Wanted to work hard, but after crying for the first two days I decided to slow down and smell some roses instead. Play video games. Write a little. Mostly just explore and absorb art and comics to the point of disassociation.
It was still a really nice week! Just one where I didn't draw much. *shrug*
Hopefully things will improve tomorrow.
But until then, have some UV art I drew yesterday!
Ruby finally taking control of her life and cutting her hair off as an act of rebellion against her mother. Or... just for her emotion and mental health. Or something.
That scene in my head was complicated.
It's very cathartic, in any case...
She actually didn't have the guts to cut it as short as she wanted, and had to get Harland to do the rest. He managed to do a good job, despite having no real hair himself.
Ah. Nothing like getting rid of something that people have been telling you to look after, despite you hating it with a burning passion. Very satisfying. If not also terrifying...
Aight. Back here again... You guys know the drill! Get into position and we'll start this show without any fuss. *blows whistle*
I've been drawing my Joy and Disgust lot. I mean, I kinda have to, because they're the main characters in my new project. But that's completely irrelevant and has nothing to do with anything. How dare you suggest otherwise.
Haha, but anyway! I really find colouring memory orbs to be a lot of fun. Especially Aussie-coloured memories!
I've got a mini-bingo game in my brain about how many colour-combinations I can make with my emotions. It's fun. I'm hoping to find good inspiration to pair everyone up with each other at some point. Should keep me amused for a time.
Also, this is the first time I've 'officially' drawn my Disgust in her upgraded design. She's been taking a lot more pride in her job lately, and I figured it was time to show that off. No longer does she wear shorts and a tank-top! I mean, she does still wear a tank-top... but the beige jacket hides that very well.
I'll be using her old design for the comic though; but that's fine. Character development yet to happen just makes the current version feel that much sweeter. :)
Hi, all! You had a good week? I think mine was good. It's hard to tell between the bursts of anxiety and hyper-fixation burnouts, but y'know. *shrug* Pretty sure it was good.
I have no idea what I'm doing. The novelty and hyper-focus for the new project is helping. But after another week or two it'll get harder, but maybe I'll have a solid outline by that point.. In any case, despite the struggle, I'm having a lot of fun. And I'm excited, despite the nervousness.
If I hadn't been so focused on work, I might've put some effort into my Saturday Picture tonight. But I was, and the only thing I drew that wasn't my comic was some arachnid kids. So...
Yeah. That's all you're getting this week.
Enjoy the fluffy spiders. I'm out!
Hope you're all doing okay, and I wish you a good weekend. :)
Every time I think I'm done with my Inside Out Oc's, they all go "No your not, and here's why" and then I proceed to spent the next few days drawing them.
That's fine. They've helped me out a lot, and if I love the idiots in my brain then I love myself too. Win-win situation.
But I think this time it's going to last a bit longer than a few days...
Why?
Because I have a new comic project dedicated to one of them now.
Well. I suppose self-indulgent fan-comics are a good way to experiment and test your limits. So I'm not that upset about this.
(It's definitely ONE way to spend the next three months of your life, anyway!)
This new comic-project was inspired by... well, me thinking deeply about nothing in particular while on holidays, and then having a light-bulb moment at something that I didn't realize sooner.
Long story short, I found one of my Core Memories. One that I've had since I was 7-8. And now I'm going to use that to... explore (for lack of a better term) how that works in a world that does the opposite.
It's weird being on the other side of the glass and becoming more aware of who you are as a person... Those lil' people inside my head are probably growing very uncomfortable with this development. But the improved work conditions and team-building exercises probably outweigh any real complaints they might have.
If nothing else, it's been fun trying to reverse-engineer my personality and figure out who's doing what at the controls. Very useful if Sadness or Anger want to say something. A bit trickier if it's Disgust or Fear...
Anyway. I doubt I'll do anything else than draw thumbnails and nitpick my script over the next few weeks.. But I'll do my best to draw something for this blog anyway!Can't guaranteed it wont be Inside Out related tho...
